I remember my university professor father railing about some popular language tic of the 80s, can’t quite remember what it was. Maybe the comment, “Really?” – for some reason that comes to mind. As in,
A: “I can’t remember where we parked the car.”
B: “Really?”
My father, may he rest in power and philosophy, would mimic the tone with great disdain, “Really? Really? Can’t they say anything more specific?”
Who knows if it was really “really” he was annoyed with; I really can’t remember. The bottom line was that he was annoyed with some bit of now-speak that, to his way of thinking, undermined people’s ability to exchange ideas clearly and with integrity to each other, took us away from to further communication and understanding.
Does that make sense?
Ok, that’s the one I’m currently thinking about. Why does it annoy me so much? Because there I am, listening to what the person’s saying about whatever it is we’re talking about, thinking about it, letting it settle in, anticipating an exchange of ideas about this particular topic, when, boom: Does that make sense?
Shit, I don’t know! Does it? You just said it! Am I supposed to pass judgement on it and reassure you that you haven’t suddenly started spouting nonsense? I mean, weren’t we talking about something of interest to us both, on more or less the same level, and now you’ve completely changed the subject to yourself and we’re talking about your ability to make sense?
Somewhere, my father is sitting around with every cat and dog he ever owned, laughing his ass off at me.
Really.
Bluebells, bumblebees, bonny bouncing queer femme sisters o’ mine, there is so much change so quickly. Perhaps like me, you are of an age and humor that the current pop culture references and language fly past you with no glimmer of recognition, perhaps you are all over the latest everything, but wherever you are in the current zeitgeist, isn’t it still worthwhile to set your worries about how you lookactsoundmakesenseofthingsthinkmove aside, give yourself a break and just try to connect with especially other queers so that we see each other and have sympathy for each other’s complications and joys? I’m not saying don’t talk however the fuck you want, because please: talk however the fuck you want! But as someone who thinks about language, I think about how we’re so deeply enmeshed in just being ME, in the individual, which might be reflected in our language and might steer us in ways that don’t serve family, Family, community, good sweet life for us all.
Today, siblings sisters dear ones all, hearts open, spirits free.
Whatever, whoever, you inherently do, you are, we are all together now all together.
Yes, that makes sense.
Every Monday I offer a Meditation for Queer Femmes, in the spirit of my maternal grandmother, Mimi, who was fabulous, and from whom I inherited her Meditations for Women.
At the Total Femme, my intention has been to post three times a week: Meditations for Queer Femmes on Monday, Pingy-Dingy Wednesday on Wednesday, and Femme Friday on Friday. Lately, I’ve just been concentrating on Mondays. And sometimes weeks go by… I’m here, though. I’m here. Do you have a post you’d like to share? That would be fucking awesome! Contact me at thetotalfemme@gmail.com