tatania de la tierra came stomping into my life with her big femme feet through her essay, “A Latina Combat Femme, Her Shoes, and Ensuing Cultural Identity” in The Femme Mystique, edited by Lesléa Newman. When I went out internet questing to find her for a Femme Friday feature, I was devastated to learn that she crossed over the rainbow bridge in 2012.
Reading her friends’ testimonials, as well as perusing her work and writing, it is clear that tatiana’s queer life enriched the world immeasurably. Her fearlessness, sense of humor, sense of the sacred, her love of lesbians and lesbian sex, of her Latinx culture and soul, her generosity in sharing; tatiana, I didn’t know you, but I miss your presence here in this plane. RIP, dear tatiana. And I think we all know what the “P” stands for.
Deep gratitude to tatiana de la tierra – big fat pussy girls make the rockin’ queer world go round!
Big Fat Pussy Girl
(excerpt)
This is what happened. Me, my cunt, and Margarita—that’s her name—we started getting intimate. And Margarita would say stuff to me, like, Ay mami, que rica que tu eres. And she’d be kissing on me and touching and swooning and I let her. And she’d be exploring me with her questions and with her tongue and with her nose and with her fingertips and when her fingers finally got there, right there to my cunt, ahí, ahí, Margarita said, Papayona, mira esta papaya tan sabrosa que tienes…Papayona.
Papayona. Big fat pussy. She said it. She named it. I didn’t just have any pussy. I had a big fat pussy. And this was a good thing. Papayona. Bigger, softer, better. Papayona. Wider, deeper, wetter. Panochota, 3X double-wide extra padded. Chochachona. Big fat pussy. Queen-size cunt. A whaler of a cunt, the cruise ship of cunts, the World Wide Web of cunts, the Cadillac of cunts, the castle of cunts, the eagle of cunts, the Jupiter of Cunts. Papayona. The Library of Congress of cunts. Papayona. The Disney World of Cunts. Papayona. The Sonora Matancera of Cunts.
Los invitamos a vivir emociones de otros tiempos. Señoras y Señores, Ladies and Gentlemen, I have the immense pleasure of presenting to you the Dean of Cunts, the world-wide famous Sonora Papayona with original arrangements and the best digital sound, con ustedes, la Sonora Papayona, the grand orchestral pussy of the 21st century.
Pa-pa-pa-papayona, que ricura chingona
Pa-pa-pa-panochota, una tremenda nota
Cho-cho-cho-chocha chochona que niñita tan mona
Big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl
Got the fattest shiniest pearl
Got the deepest oiliest well
Got the sweetest lingering smell
Got the prettiest prettiest shell
Got the prettiest prettiest shell
Big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl
Big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl, big fat pussy girl
12 de agosto de 2001, 1:48 a.m., buffalo, nueva york
–Porcupine Love and Other Tales from My Papaya. Buffalo: Chibcha Press, 2005. 5. Also recorded as: “Big Fat Pussy Girl.” Vagina Dialogues: A Queer Review. Compact disc recording. Hag Theatre, 2002.
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